Not really sure why I'm doing this to myself, it's almost 1 am and I have an essay due at 10 am tomorrow. How much have I done? Let's just say I'm still trying to settle on a topic. :.b
But anyway, I am slowly emerging from my outside world to come back here and take a look around. I've looked at most of the blogs on my list for the first time in forever, and although I didn't comment on any of them (the only one I attempted to I couldn't...), rest assured I read it.. (except D's. Sorry D :D) At least a bit (as in read at least one post and skim a few more). And I may make a comment later-- there were some I did want to saysomething about. Some things still haven't changed, even though I wanted them to.
Reading them has just created more conflict within me.
can't decide what to do about it...
I've been making lots of wrong choices in the last little while, but at the same time my life is finally getting to toter back to its feet, such as it has, so in my opinion it's probably just Satan making an effort, and succeeding for the moment, to tempt me out of the way again before I get any serious grip on reality. Who needs to bother trying to mislead someone who's being about as dull and uninterested as a pea sitting in a field? (bump on a log is so overused.) Not Satan, that's for sure. Those people will just sit like me and let life pass by and will just try to get out of its way. Trying to mislead them might only cause them to remember that there is something called life with bad things and good things and things that youwish were good but are really bad and so on.
So I guess the attakcs are good things. Giving in is the issue here.
On the brightest notes today, I managed to beat (yes, again) a new set of races in 1080: Avalanche twice, giving me Frosty Winterball (a snow man) and soon Crystal Hayami (aka the crystal lady... and she's coming soon) as characters to race. I also made my first trick hiscore, and second, for that matter. And managed to land a 1080 degree jump. In fact, I also landed a 1800 jump, and a quadruple backflip. I think I'm getting better at jumps.
...Did you really think that was it for the "brightest notes"? No way! Other highlights included being ... *cough* mature... with Caleb on webcams *quickly pulls googly face then returns to angelic expression*, seeing Derek and Cale meet in a chat, watching the persuant (is that the word I want?) discussion on POE (a poe? what!? WHERE? Give me back my spirit!!! heh, play zelda to become 1337 enough to decode that) in Hamlet, and getting an insightful reminder about love, and how to come to terms with your actions. Also in that vein, I'd like to thank my friend for pointing me towards
Psalm 51 yesterday. Thank you again. =o)
Many appologies to Derek, as once again I have failed to write a devotion. Perhaps the lack can be somewhat explained by my mostly lack of devotion to anything lately. But I do promise that I have some time coming up after 12:20 pm, which marks the end of my final midterm for this term (my finals don't start until Apr 16th), in which I will chain myself to the laptop and the bible and finish it.
Many more appologies to Essie... as I totally and completely did not wish her happy birthday :S:S:S:S:S *hides in utter shame* Happy birthday, hun. :) God bless you.
Sari out for an hour of sleep while she debates her essay topic.
